community service

i finish my final 3 hours, today.
177.5 hours with 10 hrs credit for detox [mugshot what]
166.5 hours walking out the court house..
and i have 3. hours. left.

a wrong choice turned
wrong turn formed
my life for
these past 4 months..
but i'm lucky.
honestly.. i'm truly lucky.

i've learned a tremendous amount
gained a ton of knowledge..
and know not one thing happens without a reason..

but,
it's somewhat depressing to think most people will never experience volunteering for the sake of.

too many people "less fortunate" and if we all pulled together long enough to feel something further than our "stressful shituations of everyday life" we'd actually make a difference..
and no im not trying to get all wishy washy sappy wappy on your butt..
i've simply been doing a ton of soul searching in these past months
and have realized how truly selfish we as people are.
its a natural and birth given trait..
but it doesnt make it right.. or attractive nonetheless.

so as i write off these last 3 hours..
i choose to not make this my last day..
but my first day willingly helping out.

is that funeral parade enough for you?

makeadifference.org
mtvu_cause effect
bigbrothers_bigsisters

[just to name a few]